My Creativity Journey

As an only child, I got used to spending time with myself at a very young age. I was constantly in an imaginary world, either reading or creating stories in my head. And I much preferred drawing and crafts to playing with toys. 

At some point, I discovered I loved attention, so I used any opportunity to perform. I enjoyed dressing up and being on any improvised stage, even though I couldn't hold a tune and my acting wasn't that great. 

Art classes on Fridays were the highlight of my week during my childhood and teenage years. Then, the first short story I ever wrote won three awards and got me my first laptop, which I used to share my art and make friends online. 

Creativity was a huge part of my life, and I was constantly experimenting. Making mistakes and starting over was part of the process. And it made it fun. 

Until I started university. 

I remember very well that in my first week, a lecturer told us that our role as translators and interpreters was to be invisible—the total opposite of what I wanted. I made fun of it, but I had five years ahead to train to become invisible, and I can see now that it had a much deeper effect on me than I had thought. 

Modelling acted as an escape, but looking back, I can see how it was more restrictive than creative. I was never sure who I was and always moulded my image to please others. 

I graduated and moved to Ireland at 23. A foreigner with an unknown degree, a tiny social circle, and no strong sense of self—I was no longer the overachiever. I was in a new and conservative environment, misunderstood, and lost my creative spark. 

I began a people-pleasing spiral with jobs and relationships. I was taken advantage of and became increasingly disconnected from myself. I wore only black, kept to myself, and became scared to express who I was. I believed I wasn't worthy and kept repeating the same patterns over and over again, feeling frustrated and hopeless. 

That brought me to therapy and, after that, to Image Coaching. 

Meeting myself allowed me to experiment again. I broke the mould of who I thought I had to be and began to feel who I was. And gave myself the space to be. 

All those years, I had been performing a restrictive role. Putting on a costume to live someone else's life. I mostly experiment with clothes and makeup now, but I also think and live more creatively. After taking the time to get to know me, I found myself without a script—free. 

That made me want to support others in their journey to reconnect with themselves, creativity included, and dare to not fit in. 

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